Oh well, nothing can be done about it. I've seen the trend and it always works the same way. I become irrelevant and unloved. I probably deserve it. I'm not such a great person. I'm the sinner Jesus was talking about in the bible. I've hit all ten on the stone tablets. I haven't killed anyone, but I'm sure I caused someone's death somehow. I've certainly been blamed. But the world is interconnected on the quantum level anyway and we're all the cause of each others' smiles and sorrows. There is no way to escape responsibility even though we are each alone in our reality caves. I hope it's not too late for love.
I hope I'm not dead yet. There must be some way to fix the radioactivity plumes in the ocean.